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The Diary of a Brown-Eyed Beauty
[Private]
Dear Diary,

Everything is moving along smoothly, once again. Of course... Crookshanks has been missing for a week now, but -at least- I've managed to stay away from any private encounters with Professor Snape or Sebastian Capper. Though I still need to meet with Sebastian...

Harry... seems better. I can't quite tell, because I've been busy with my duties and studies... but I think... Oh bugger, I should just ask him later.

Shoot. Reminder to self: finish essay on metalurgic combinations.
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[Private: Members of the DA]
That's right. I think it's time, now that we've settled into our routines, to once again meet. Classroom 1031 will suit our purposes nicely. Tomorrow evening, after dinner. If you've any conflicts, let me know.
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[Private: Daphne Greengrass]
Honestly, Daphne, could you -please- control yourself? Not that I'm one to talk. I've been receiving complaints about your corridor-behavior and your general attitude towards the rest of the students. Please keep your lips, tongue, and spread legs -behind- closed doors, and do work on that horrid attitude of yours. Thank you.

... Oh, and whatever you've done to Professor Lupin, please -undo- it. And stay away from Harry.
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Afternoon. It's your Head Girl here, reminding you all that a Hogsmeade visit -is- coming up, shortly. As is a certain holiday we all know and love. Please remember to stay calm in the town, and be on your best behavior. Thank you.

[Private: Harry Potter]
How dare you lure me out of my studies with yellow rice!

... I'd love to help you with your studies. I'll be around this evening.

Are you okay?
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[Private: Sebastian Capper]
Sebastian. I'm sorry, my duties prevented me from holding promised date earlier. Perhaps we can meet again?
[/Private]

~ Hermione

~emotion~: busy busy

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[Private]
Dear Diary,

It's going to be okay.

Harry's with me, through thick and thin. Sure, I can't completely trust myself... but I think with Harry still by my side, I'll survive. My grades are already soaring again -- I can even concentrate completely in Potions although I've been avoiding Severus outside of class.

... though, on the down side, Crookshanks is missing.
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Has anyone seen Crookshanks? I swear, he was under the covers with me last night... but I haven't seen him all day. If you've seen a furry, bottlebrush-tailed, half-Kneazle sulking around the corridors, please let me know. Thank you.

[Private: Harry Potter and Ron Weasley]
Are you two studying for the NEWT Transfiguration test? Honestly, I know I've been rather absent lately and being in a seperate dormitory means we're together less -- but if I seen you two playing chess or snap one more time I will hex you two senseless.

... oh, and can either of you help me search for Crooks?
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[Private: Sebastian Capper]
Bastian... can we meet again sometime?
Hello. I'm not busy tomorrow. Are you?
Um. Do you think we can talk tomorrow?

Mister Capper. I'll have you know I am still very upset with you. I know we have yet to talk since the last... incident, and I think it would be appropriate to schedule another rendez-vous. And no, Sebastian, not -that- kind of meeting. I mean, I wouldn't mind, but...

Meet me in the Room of Requirement. Nine sharp.
[/Private]

~ Hermione

~emotion~: calm calm

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[Private]
Dammit! Dammit! Dammit!

I lost control again -- blasted Slytherins! And now, to make matters doubly worse, Ron stumbled upon it.

This -must- stop!
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[Private: Bastian Capper]
Sebastian Capper!

When can I see you again?

What the -hell- happened last night? Gah! I'll have you know I am not some bloody slag you can throw on a bed and molest. Though I admit I did enjoy it. I should have you thrown in detention because I'm not about to admit that I could have stopped you.

Fucking prat.
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Oi.
~ Hermione

~emotion~: aggravated aggravated

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[Private]
I do believe I've managed to regain complete composure. I simply need to keep an eye on my priorities:

~ Schoolwork. I've certainly been wasting far too much of my time socializing in the Gryffindor Tower. This semester, I really must crack down on my work again -- to think, I've let my grades slip in Arithmancy!

~ N.E.W.T.s. I must start immediate preparation. Which means reviewing my notes as far back to the rudimentary basics in First Year. Oh, and I must owl my parents for another notebook or two -- I must take notes on the most essential parts of my current notes...

~ Prefect/Head Girl Duties. Galloping off with Malfoy is hardly dedication to my duties. Especially now, with what has happened, I've got to devote myself to the safety and well-being of the students.

~ Harry Potter. I... owe Harry everything. And I must find time to let him know I'm here for him -- for support, comfort, advice... and love.

~ Ron Weasley. Merlin -- I've been neglecting my duty of keeping Ron on the right track! I must find time to hassle that red-headed nuisance again.

~ Draco Malfoy. I must keep things completely impersonal. We are -partners-, as senior prefects, but nothing more. Ever. I could NEVER do that to Harry. Never. What's done is done. And there will be no more.

~ Pansy Parkinson. Gods. I don't know why I even let her -get- to me. She's a pug-nosed, snivelling tramp. Argh. Sod her.

~ Professor Snape. My grades have... raised considerably, since this fall. I think maybe I've... done enough. I really... lost all control of myself. I'm... Hermione Granger, not a bloody slag...

~ Self-Control. Honestly. No more letting... myself lose my control. Though I know... I may not always be able to stop myself. I really must reassert my dominance over all-things in my life. I can't let it all slip away...

~ Bossiness. Cor, what happened to me? I'm losing my reputation as bossy-know-it-all. And I've become the Gryffindor Slag.

Honestly. It's time to reinvent (or rather, restore my previous self) myself. Hormones are irrelevant.

Note To Self: Take Cold Baths Whenever Feeling... Randy.
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[Private: Professor Snape]
Severus. Professor. Perhaps when you have a moment, we could have one final more meeting? I would like to personally thank you for your gracious alteration of my grades. I believe I am once again reasserting my prominance in the class. Let me know, please.

... oh, and what shall I wear?
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Remember, fellow students, to stay calm and relax. Everything is once again under control. Furthermore, we all know there is no where safer than Hogwarts. Keep your heads up, and try to act like everything's normal.

~ Hermione

~emotion~: thoughtful thoughtful

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[Private: Gryffindors, Hufflepuffs, and Ravenclaws (Oh my!)]
... stop.

The attack happened. People were hurt. Lives were changed.

But it's not helping anyone to panic, especially in public. If you need to vent or anything, my dorm is always open. Or just vent in private... but Dumbledore wants to stress the importance of staying -calm- and -normal-.

Quidditch practices and games are continuing as normal. There will be a Hogsmeade visit next week. Life is moving along -- don't be left behind.

The Ministry (and more importantly, Dumbledore) are doing everything possible to keep us safe. It's not our job to panic or spaz out. Yes, there -may- come a time when we will have to band together -- but for now, we need only continue as normal.

I also must stress the lock-down rule. If I catch you breaking this rule, I have no alternative than to give you a week's worth of detentions with Snape.

I'm sorry. But safety is important. Stay calm... everything's going to be okay.
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Slytherins -- watch your tongue. Particularly you, Blaise Zabini. I can still give you detentions.

[Private]
Merlin... I have a terrible migraine. And I can't remember anything about last night...

Draco.
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[Private: Professor Snape]
There isn't much more time before break ends... is there anything else I can do to lift my grade?
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~ Hermione

~emotion~: optimistic optimistic

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[Private]
Happy >> Surprised >> Shocked >> Numb >> Blank >> Confused >> Frustrated >> Vengeful >> Self-Reprimanding >> Calm

It began in his arms... and ended in the shower, alone.

I'll save myself the pain of dictating the same old "woe-is-me" rant. It's always the same -- and always will be.

But we're not doomed. And I am ready, for whatever it takes...

... and yet, when I'm curled up in bed, I still find myself depending on Harry to pull something off.
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Happy New Years from your Head Girl. Keep the spirits up, students -- if we drown in misery, we've let them win.

~ Hermione

~emotion~: contemplative contemplative

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Merry Christmas from your Head Girl!

I hope you all have a lovely Christmas.

[Private: Harry Potter]
... Mind if I sneak up to your dorm? I'm awful cold in mine. And I can give you your present! *grins* Oh, and Merry Christmas, Harry... I love you.
[/Private]

~ Hermione

~emotion~: energetic energetic

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[Private]
Dear Diary,

Honestly.

... I must control myself. I'm beginning to become... obvious. No. It's much more than that. I'm beginning to become... slutty. And I can not do that. Not to myself, and more importantly -- not to Harry.

Then again, the Harry Issue is nonexistant. True, I... I... I'm in love with him. But we've already agreed: it will not go further. After all, this is Harry's last year at Hogwarts. And, judging by the past six years, this may very well be the worst one yet. Naturally, we can't take the risk of letting a romance distract Harry. And yet, I still love him... And so I can not let myself get carried away. Snape is one thing -- it's stictly business. But no more acting like Pansy or Daphne.

... Severus. Oh Merlin. I can't even get into that -- though I know Snape would be hardly pleased by my behavior. Which is why I must pull myself together.

Yes. It shouldn't be too difficult. I just must learn to control my reactions and mannerisms, especially in the presence of one Draco Malfoy.

Draco.

Gods! How could I have let myself get carried away? It's those damn flashes! When I lose control of my body, and my urges get the better of me. But I shouldn't worry any more. I will reign those urges.

Whew. I've got it.
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[Private: Draco]
Reminder: I am -not-, nor will I ever be, one of your Slytherin whores. What happened the other day was purely a fluke. And I am beginning to wonder if you slipped something into my water. Get -bent-, Malfoy.
[/Private]

Well. The Holidays have started well, for the most part. How is everyone?

I was wondering. Maybe after the Yule Ball, would anyone like to meet in the Room of Requirement to wind down...?

[Private: Harry]
Oh, and Harry... can I see you sometime when you're not busy being adorably broody?
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~ Hermione

~emotion~: contemplative contemplative

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[Private]
Dear Diary,

... to be without answers is to be lost.

It really only started this year. And -God- only knows why my grades have been slipping in Potions. My grades -never- slip. I've tried everything -- late nights, all-nighters, caffeine, drugs... and still I can't seem to bring my grades back up. Well... that is, until I asked Professor Snape for extra credit. And now... I've really screwed things up. I feel like I'm... betraying Harry. But I -need- perfect marks. And if holding regular meetings with Snape in his office will bring up my average, than that is what I must do. Harry would understand. Though sometimes I wonder if I'm doing this for some other reason than just to maintain my grade point average...

Harry. He really is wonderful... Everything feels just -perfect- when we're alone. And that's why I can't tell him. If he found out... I'm not sure what I would do. But I can't take that risk. Our... relationship, though nothing more serious than a friendship, is much too important to me -- and now I'm beginning to wish we hadn't promissed not to make a 'commitment' this year. Sometimes I think it may be the only thing keeping me from going off the deep end. And Harry does keep me from blowing up at Ron. Incompetence... it really annoys me sometimes.

Oh! In just five days, I'll be attending the Yule Ball with Harry! I think... He did say yes, right? And I -know- this time, the ball will be much more enjoyable. I doubt I will need quite as much Sleekeazy's Hair Potion, but I may have to owl Dervish and Banges for an owl-delivery. My dress is... perfect -- dark red, princess-cut, shoulderless. And even though I still don't know what to give Harry for Christmas, I imagine the ball will be nothing short of wonderful.

... if only I could figure my more personal issues out first.
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The Christmas Holidays have begun!

Now, with the exception of my duties as Head Girl, I can finally breathe... Oh! In my panic to prepare and study for exams, I've forgotten -- remind me again: who is staying for the holidays?

[Private: Snape]
Professor. When shall I drop by again for my lesson?
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[Private: Harry]
Hey! Umm... I just wanted to remind you that I love you. And I absolutely can't wait until the 25th. We are going together, right?
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~ Hermione

~emotion~: complacent complacent

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