... to be without answers is to be lost.
It really only started this year. And -God- only knows why my grades have been slipping in Potions. My grades -never- slip. I've tried everything -- late nights, all-nighters, caffeine, drugs... and still I can't seem to bring my grades back up. Well... that is, until I asked Professor Snape for extra credit. And now... I've really screwed things up. I feel like I'm... betraying Harry. But I -need- perfect marks. And if holding regular meetings with Snape in his office will bring up my average, than that is what I must do. Harry would understand.
Harry. He really is wonderful... Everything feels just -perfect- when we're alone. And that's why I can't tell him. If he found out... I'm not sure what I would do. But I can't take that risk. Our... relationship, though nothing more serious than a friendship, is much too important to me -- and now I'm beginning to wish we hadn't promissed not to make a 'commitment' this year. Sometimes I think it may be the only thing keeping me from going off the deep end. And Harry does keep me from blowing up at Ron. Incompetence... it really annoys me sometimes.
Oh! In just five days, I'll be attending the Yule Ball with Harry!
... if only I could figure my more personal issues out first.
The Christmas Holidays have begun!
Now, with the exception of my duties as Head Girl, I can finally breathe... Oh! In my panic to prepare and study for exams, I've forgotten -- remind me again: who is staying for the holidays?
Professor. When shall I drop by again for my lesson?
Hey! Umm... I just wanted to remind you that I love you. And I absolutely can't wait until the 25th.